Still Alive...

I'm here. I'm working toward my goals, but the longer term ones are more difficult to cross off the list. I hope I'll be there at the end of the road... I'm trying...

Yoga

It's been wonderful. It really has. I skipped last week because I had stuff to do...I don't think I'll miss again. We worked really hard today. It's good exercise!

Tired...

It's time to focus less on basketball and more on me. Basketball has been quite a frustration for me on Sundays. After thinking about it for a while, I've decided to stop playing in the women's league. I end up frustrated and angry. My self-confidence plummets, and I end up feeling negative.

After reading Cheryl Richardson's newsletter this week. It seems that when I read the weekly newsletter, although I don't immediately recognize it, I'm given some sort of guidance. This week, after reflecting on the questions presented, I realized something.

• Am I pleased with how I'm spending my precious time on earth?
• Am I spending enough quality time with the people who matter most?
• Am I doing my best to listen to the voice of my soul so I make real, honest choices based on what I most want?
• Am I sharing (or working toward sharing) my God-given gifts and talents with others?

I am not pleased with the way I'm choosing to spend my time when I'm playing on Sundays. I am taking away time from the people I love most. I end up pulling us all out of the house for an hour, just to end up feeling frustrated and sad. When I have thought about not playing before, I always knew I would be sad if I didn't, but I need to take a more honest look at what's happening and realize that it's just not working for me. And the last question... Although I love basketball, that is not one of my strengths. I think my God-given gifts lie in other areas, and if I let myself be frustrated by playing on Sundays, people will think that the person on the court is who I am. It's not. I am 33 years old. I am a good mother. I am a good teacher. I am a creative person. And none of these things can be seen when I play basketball.

So it's not like I'm gonna stop playing. I still have Fridays and the men's league. I'm still gonna have my time to get immersed in basketball and feel love for the game, but I'm finally taking a good, hard look at how I feel in certain situations. It's probably gonna take awhile to get used to not playing on the team, but I think it's better for my mental health in the long run.

Whew, that was a long post. I think it's time to see Dr. Tamura again. Ha ha ha.